Niketa’s Story

I became a new mom December 15th 2020 to a beautiful baby girl Zara Neal Harris. The whole process of being pregnant for the first time at 40 was bitter sweet for me and hubby because I lost my mother September 21st 2018 at 3:31 am, a time I will never forget. My mother was so ready to be a grandmother and I like to think that she played a part with God choosing us to parent our baby girl. She held her in the spiritual world before she came to be in my belly.

It is such a weird journey as we hit new milestones and when I have questions I want to pick up the phone and have my mom answer the eloquent way she always knew how. I want my mom to hug me when this new journey gets overwhelming like with breastfeeding challenges. I want my mom to hold my baby girl and smile with her big smile and let her know that grandma is here.

I am so glad that I have video to look and hear my mother and show my daughter who her grandmother is. I miss her more than words can express and I find every opportunity to speak her name, that has helped my grief recovery.